Fear.

Its all about fear.Fear of doing the wrong thing,fear of getting hurt,fear of making the wrong choice.It takes its toll on you,you know that.Right now,im currently holding on to something that will probably turn up to be nothing in the end. its so clear that it will never happen,but i dont know why.i believe and i have faith in all my hopes and dreams,i just really want this one to come true.Screw the past,im so over it.Somehow i just learned to not dwell on things that never happened and stopped feeling sorry about myself,i just told myself that if anything was meant to be it would have worked out perfectly well and i have tried my very best.I just got tired and i managed to control myself from breaking down.

I guess somethings are better off left untold,you know.Save what you have now cause you might lose it.Im not strong either,but i have to be.For life's sake.