Things would be so much easier if I could just switch off what I feel for you. I want to just be able to say "I don't like you that way" and actually mean it. I want us both to be able to do our own thing and for it not to bother me. To not be bothered where you are, who you're with, what your thinking. I want to be able to let go and not feel like I'm missing a part of me. But most of all, I want you to want what I want. But I don't see that happening.